This one is for you

pulling to alight
he blocks my view
her eyes
they remind of you.
a rattle of windows
like mini speed bumps
on the tracks.
I missed my stop.
You'd have woken me.

Morning no.4

Listening: Abba-Mamma mia
Reading: Heaven is a Playground

Okay... so here I am at my work desk, typing away @ $22 per hour. No wonder blogging is lucrative lol.

Ahhhh one post at a time to my ultimate blogging revival and i'm SOO unmotivated. Think my depressive mood must arise from a) DEAD PHONE, b) BORED/LAZY, c) MONDAY 1Dec.

Wonder if i should go for a 2-day course on Animal Surgery. Cost $385, sounds really professional and will be great on my resume, but is there a purpose? It's more or less like my backup of a backup of a backup career. Probably easier to start practising street sweeping. And cheaper too. hah.

Anyway, some breaking news: Got a bonded offer to do medicine in Flinders Uni, Adelaide. Will start in Feb 2009. Don't think i'm ready to leave. But it is a decision that can affect my career future. Deadline: 10th December.

Start of the busy weekend! with LAN party tonight haha and graduations plus shopping tomorrow, and lunch at Lynette's on Sunday. phew.

peace out.

Back from the Grave!

Hi,
i'm not pretending to discredit myself from shar's "abandoned aztec temples" list, but i guess there's no excuse to not blog.
SOO quick update before i try to updte regularly and not lose far-away friends!

from 2007, it's been a crazy year from the beginning and looking back, things have changed HEAPS but i'm happy with everything i've done so yea! Top of the hit list, participating in YAA www.yaa.org.au Biotech Entrepreneur Program, learning lots lots and making crazy mistakes all along the way, learning how to deal with groups, personality clashes, individuals, dreams larger than life, yet walking life daily step by step. And of course, the opportunity to know Ai-Leen :D:D:D:D

SOO here we are at 2008, same apartment (thank God!) but people around me moving, changing. People growing, people i wish would grow, people whom i need while growing. Yeah kinda vague but this is just a SUMMARY!
2008 also is the start of MMG, Melbourne Mastermind Group, of Vinh Kel Am Ai-Ai and me, learning all about financial intelligence and recognizing the beauty and strength in each other, and helping each other reach our goals and attain things important to us. Many people would give anything for this kind of support around them ,this one almost fell into our laps. very thankful for this and hope we succeed!
Mummyhugs, australia be prepared to be blasted away! yes i will try my best at what i do worst: sell. But once i slay my demons i'm ready for more.
Keeping my world together, in one piece. Not pleasing everyone has been a hard lesson and now to adjust back to pleasing people who deserve it. hard, i better get my ass to it. Lives are at stake, literally. (my own included of course)
By the way, if i sign onto 3, how many people will conspire to murder me?
Peace out
p.s. Kaba Modern.....dance, as we knew it, is dead. and born.

And another AFC moment!

At least i dare say i'm man enough to say this. That i'm just another freaking AFC plodding on down the street, shying away at once upon eye contact of another AFC on the street, like being ashamed of both yourself and for him.

I still can't decide if i like or hate this feeling : having so many thoughts that you actually don't know or remember the point of it anymore. Like Ross said ( to Phoebe), if you forget the reason, then you should just drop it right?

How-not-to-be-an-AFC should be taught to all boys in high school. Unless natural selection is your argument or you're a director hungry for a bullying-type plot.

either ways, i'm feeling fucked.

OverheARd

This got me almost bursting out in laughter and smiling like an idiot when i was walking out of Aldi.
Aldi shopper going to Aldi with Aldi-first timer. At the register, the aldi-first timer became confused. So the Aldi shopper said to his friend:

"I'll teach you, Safeway Chump, the way we do things around here."

ALDI rulez. Give us more discount, international-student haven!

I NEED A FASHION GURU

"The boys in jeans, snickers, nike t-shirts or collared unknowns, standard stuff. Then it's him, vith a semi-V neck black sweater, very casual, very cool. 3/4 jeans, showing his tanned and shapey calves, donning a pair of havanianas." Man. how do you NOT stand out like that? sex god...

ANyway, I need to get a) a better dress sense, b) a shopping buddy with a good dress sense, c) money.

HOW! maybe i can start with a haircut haha.

It's amazing how the clothes you put on can influence the attitudes of others towards you, and influence the way you carry yourself. And how so many first impressions stem from how you look/dress, and usually don't go very far from there....

I guess Neil Strauss is so right: To be able to show her your inner beauty, you have to attract her attention to you with outer beauty.

tragically true. Which is why i love those with x-ray vision. hehe.

Chinese Whispers, i'll steal your murmurs

There's a peephole. On one side it's you. And the other, i's LIFE. It's not possible to open the door and see the whole picture (kai1 men2 jian4 shan1)......But you can always look into the peephole and catch a glimpse.

Peepholes are small. Sometimes they distort the image. You have to focus. "But but...it's so boring!" then let's go retro, and put on your tinted glasses!

Tinted glasses are of all colours. Pick your poison.
But wait! Why you go reaching for red? Is that all you want to see?
And keep your hands off the blue! yes they cool, but a little too cold.
Don't go for the green lest you be mean.

Happy colours will make your world happy. It's all in the peephole. LIFE doesn't change, but your peephole can be different. It's your choice. Pick your poison.